okay i don’t want to sound like some thirsty hoe ok. so i’m gonna put read more. don’t even bother reading this cause you’re probably gonna be like omg kenny shut the fuck up you’re 15. and you’re right i should shut the fuck up and not care but like omg. my luck with boys is terrible.
I’m too scared to fall back asleep. So I was lucid dreaming. It was a really nice dream honestly. My ex and I were still together and him and I were sleeping together. Not sexually but like we were just in bed together. He was massaging my back and then he got on top of me. While he was on top of me I was just looking at him all happy and then he disappeared. I felt this heavy weight on my chest and I kept struggling to breathe. I knew I was conscious but I was unable to move a muscle, unable to talk or scream. I was on the edge of my bed so I tried to roll over so I could fall off my bed and snap out of it, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t move an inch. I couldn’t move or speak. I tried so hard to scream help. Not a sound. I literally thought I was dead. Kind of like I died in my sleep but my soul wasn’t ready to leave or something. I don’t know what to do. I’m just going to try to stay up until the sunrises and watch netlix. I want to cry and never sleep again.
Wow this girl has really gotten crazy trying to annoy me. She complains about how I’m so obsessed with myself and how she hates me, okay that’s your opinion. But if you hate me, why do you comment on all my crap all the time and check up on me. Like, leave me alone if you don’t like me. I block you and then you make a new one and comment on my stuff. I never comment on your shit, I don’t even know what your problem is, it’s like she’s on a never ending period of emotions and anger, oh well she can drown in her own period blood for all I care, crazy obsessed bitch.